Hit Me At Full Swing

HermitCrabby_LHC · Post by **HermitCrabby_LHC** » Fri Jul 19, 2013 6:31 am

I have had depression on and off for about 4 years now. Recently, in June when my guinea pig died, it hit me at full swing. I had not cut myself in about 4 months and I ended up cutting my wrists about 5 or 6 times. I have never done that before. It hurt so bad yet felt so good. I skipped school saying that I was "sick" for a week after. My mom tried to talk to me. I shut everyone out. I didn't eat alot at all. I had maybe 1 thing a day when no one was home. I didn't feel like doing anything. I would get up, take care of my pets and go back to bed. I would wait until every one was gone, I would eat something, and go back to bed and stare at the ceiling. I would cut myself. It wasn't a path I wanted to be on. I got myself up and ready for school the next morning. I covered my scabs with concealer and long sleeves. I went to school, still not the same but better. I ate that day. I talked to friends. I didn't shut anyone out. In that week I was "sick" I learned that there is so much more in life. I needed someone to rely on. I needed people in my life. I needed to live. I have fading scars on my wrists now. Im not very proud of them either. I wanted to post this to inspire anyone else, that in all the bad you can find motivation. I havent cut myself since and am not in depression, but my anxiety is still bad

Laurie LeAnn · Post by **Laurie LeAnn** » Sat Jul 20, 2013 2:51 am

losing a pet is bad and sad, better ways to deal with it than cutting.. what did it do for you? nothing really but give you scars and a few days off of school and in bed.. didn't bring the pet back..please don't do it anymore..there are friends out there that you can talk to, e mail, face book, parents, go cry if you have to!!!I am sorry that your pet died, I hate it when someone loses their animals..I cried so hard when my frog died. I just don't get it why people feel the need to cut themselves?

HermitCrabby_LHC · Post by **HermitCrabby_LHC** » Sat Jul 20, 2013 5:59 am

You dont get it, no one does unless they have been in your shoes. I dont even know why I did it. My dad had lost his job a month before, my mom hadnt needed to work until then. I was still getting over the death of my great grandmother, and it all came back. I did cry, a lot.

finalfantasyxii · Post by **finalfantasyxii** » Sat Jul 20, 2013 6:18 am

I get it that cutting is hard to understand but it's like many things other people do that you can't know unless you've been there. I have cut myself before - it was a long time ago - and I do know that it is the act of a desperate person. For me, the pain seemed so great inside that I wanted to feel physical pain to distract myself from it. I know that was just my experience. I do know that a person needs help sometimes dealing with that kind of inner pain.I'm very glad you passed through that time and are on the road to recovery. It's a very difficult thing to go through.